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08:29pm 15/06/2004
  need journal username: xhappygeekx

lol its gay but whatever thats the one ill be using now but ill still be writing in this one too		  
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10:02pm 13/06/2004
 
mood: cranky
dont even wanna talk bout my day...lets just say i hate foreigners!!!		  
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this saddens me....   
10:15pm 12/06/2004
 
mood: confused

i really hate to see that no matter where i am or what i am doing people are always fighting....i mean come on guys no one wants to fight so why does everyone keep doing it?

it also kinda disturbs me that some people i know now that i cannot trust because i know that whatever i sed to them and told them....theyre telling that person what i sed.

why doesnt everyone just grow up and live life their own way and stop looking to see if their life is better than others.....

sometimes i just think that no one will be themselves...trully theirselves....doesnt it hurt?

  
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07:58pm 12/06/2004
 
mood: hyper
O Orderly
L Luxurious
I Important
V Virile
I Innocent
A Ambitious

 

F Fun
R Radical
A Ambivalent
N Noisy
C Cheerful
E Excellent
S Secretive

 

B Bashful
L Little
A Appealing
K Kind
E Enjoyable

this is sooooo cool

  
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IM IN ROME....at this very moment....   
07:30pm 12/06/2004
 
mood: ecstatic

im in fricken ROME and im bored....lol....somethings wrong with that.  my feet hurt weve been walking everywhere and now im hungry too.

there have been lots well some of cute boys...gay boys....straight ((but ugly)) boys...and then boys ((that dress better than all my freinds)) boys.

i saw MISCHA BARTON (("marissa" from the O.C.)) she was at the LOUVRE at the same time as us....she took a picture of the mona lisa with her camera phone and she was with her boyfriend...all i no he was wearing a PINK shirt...hehe

switzerland was sooo fun and its so pretty there.....i loved venice of course cause its my favorite place in the whole world....and the rest of italy is just very HOTT....france we didnt really enjoy that much dunno why i just dont really like it there....england however is fuggin awesome!!  I GOT TO SEE HARRY POTTER ON MAY 3!!!!!  it was kinda cool seeing an english movie IN and enlgish country lol.  we loved england. 

kk well me outs....i be back home on FATHERS DAY...leave me comments so i feel special lol

((the only sad thing about this trip....im not very tan...im sorta tan...but not very))

  
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im leaving tomorrow ::tear:tear::   
09:10pm 01/06/2004
 
mood: ditzy
leaving tomorrow...im so excited!! but im gonna miss my friends..:( but oh well ill get thru it lol.

hmmm i hate skool thank god its coming to an end!!!

OMG XT....that kid from peter pan is adorable....id defintely screw him lol....no really if that kid was our age OH MAN....haha....we need to find out who the hell that kid is!

so today was fuggin awesome....the study hall rooms were so cold tho....my teeth were def chattering...hehe

im gonna miss my gurlys so much....JeNnY...xT....SaMiE....i.heart.you.guys.

aight well i better be going....ill write in here when i get back from vaca

.::livvy::.		  
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im studying ::wink:wink::   
05:58pm 30/05/2004
 
mood: nerdy
i didnt no that anyone could ever be this bored.

mother wont me go out because 'its finals week' how bogus is that?

i hate this im leaving for vaca on wednesday and all i wanna do is be with my friends but no that just wont happen.

so ill just pretend that im studying		  
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uber bored   
03:21pm 29/05/2004
 
mood: bored
sorry emma i stole that word from you...'uber'

theres nothing to do today except study....tahts what my mommy is making me do.

tonite im seeing SHREK 2 with jen and sam...im really excited

im think im getting sick ::tear:tear:: my throat hurts...((haha u no why shaun lol jk))


i WiSh i could gO...
so FaR aWaY...
where TiMe moves ToO sLoW...
dAy after dAy...
...ill wAit... and ill SiT and wAtCh
the cLoUdS as they gO bY....		  
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12:50pm 27/05/2004
 
mood: cold

todays the last day of school..well techinically if u dont count all the days for finals.  everyones taking all these pictures and im sad cause i forgot my camera.  lol. 

me and jen are all good now no more problems.  at least i hope lol.  maybe i should pray or something lol.

hmmm so today after skool i gotta study for chemistry but the whole studying thing just doesnt work for me so i might just have to call some people and well hang out or something.

GILT TRIP--kristi....omg kristis leaving me to study all by myself she nos thats bad rite lol.  and then SAMIE..haha yah i spelled it rite this time...yah she cant study with me either cause her mom bday is today.  mhmmm....so yes i must find someone else who has chem final tomorrow and i need help.  lol.

emma just did a crazy dance in the hallway...i will miss her deeply...lol

hmmmm so yes i am very bored now jerrys talking and thinks....THINKS....im listening but really im not!  hehe.  like i no what the hell those technical car terms mean.  IDK lol

  
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12:28pm 26/05/2004
 

hmm today has been awesome as hell!!

hmm kris ill just have some water on the rox!!  and yes we all do need a little H2O in our lives....

hmm so yah skool been great so far......i fell alseep in geometry today...lol...SAMMIE!! lol

OH AND KIMMIE......HE GOT DA ABBZ!!!

  
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its all down hill from here   
12:21pm 26/05/2004
 
mood: content
you're hiding something, cuz it's burning through your eyes
i try to get it out but all i hear from you are lies
i can tell you're going through the motions
figured you were writing out your part
once again we're playing off emotion
which one of us will burn until the end.

Catalyst you exist to pull me down,
You contradict the fact that you still want me around,
and its all downhill from here,
and all downhill from here

Your good intentions slowly turn to bitterness
Reoccurring episodes with each and every kiss
i can tell you're going through the motions
figured you were writing out your part
once again we're playing off emotions
which one of us will burn until the end.

Catalyst you exist to pull me down,
You contradict the fact that you still want me around,
and its all downhill from here,
and all downhill from here

I can?t believe you pulled it off again
I?m running till it all sets in
You?ll deny it till you?re at your bitter end
i can tell you're going through the motions
figured you were writing out your part
once again we're playing off emotions
which one of us will burn until the end.

Catalyst you exist to pull me down,
You contradict the fact that you still want me around,
and its all downhill from here,
and all downhill from here

(AND YOU KEEP PULLING ME DOWN)
Pulling me down pulling me down
Catalyst you exist to pull me down,
You contradict the fact that you still want me around,
and its all downhill from here,
and all downhill from here		  
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if all else fails   
12:40pm 25/05/2004
 
mood: giddy
All subdoed silence undisturbed by the sound of her breath
So carefully, brush her hair back from her eyes in steady sequence, one by one
She slips away

So close your eyes and sleep to dream
I'm by your side
No words to speak
We'll set our course and make it through
No matter how far I go
My heart remains with you

And I'm not sure
What I'm looking for
But it's clear to see the purpose of my existence
Is laying here right in front of me

And if all else fails you can look up at the sky
Because it's the same one
That shines above you and I

And if all else fails you can close your eyes
And I'll be right beside you
I'll be the one by your side

No matter how far I go
No matter how much this hurts
I wanted you to know
My heart remains with you		  
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this ones for u jen...   
12:21pm 24/05/2004
 
mood: pissed off
ok if ur mad at me because i ACCIDENTALLY took ur keys with me...look im sorry bout that ok i thought u sed to put them in my purse but whatever if ur gonna get so upset over something so gay like that ur retarded. and then u want me to go over to sams house ((and i dont even no where the hell she lives)) in a fucking storm?!?!?!?!?

look i cannot deal with another liz thing again. i cant and i wont. the whole thing started with me and liz because she got a new bff and a bf....ohh look it seems that im dealing with the same crap again with u!! i cant even tell u how it feels when u go somewhere and ur bestfriend ignores u!! seriously it sucks ass. and then i find out from a FRIEND that u were talking bout this whole thing ont eh bus with erin and lisa. why cant u just talk about it with me??? considering that im the cause of this whole thing apparently.

im actaully kinda interested to hear what u and sam were talking about on friday...i no i had to be somewhat in the convo am i right?

look i no i ditched u guys on saturday to go off to a party but yah i had so much more fun there than staying at the mall doing absolutely nothing. and i didint like that fact that u were ignoring me the whole time. adn u wanna no wwhat made me really happy that nite...when i saw kevin at the mall with his date. seriously he made me feel better. why am i telling u this who nos i just am.

i no that u have a new bestfriend now and u dont need me anymore. im not doing this again...i was a wreck last time this happened and i cant do it again...so if u dont wanna talk to me fine whatever ill see u next year since ull prolly be busy with sam and mike the whole time...HAVE A GREAT SUMMER!!		  
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a beautiful nite   
12:27am 22/05/2004
  kk so tonite kimmie came over and we wached some movies and then we were just surfed online and came up with....

what kind of kiss are you?
KIM-mysterious kisser
ME-mysterious kisser

which of the greek gods are you?
KIM-aphrodite
ME-poseidon

what type of sex do you enjoy?
KIM-regualr sex
ME-regualr sex

which slang word are you?
KIM-crackin
ME-crackin

whats your sex appeal?
KIM-innocent
ME-innocent

what swear word are you?
KIM-asshole
ME-asshole

i have a 98% chance of love with...((not gonna say hehe))

kimmies gotta 74% chance of love with....

QUOTES OF THE NITE

*may your brake pedals be eaten by acidic snails*
*i feel your obscene hardness grow beneath my palm*
*OH GOD! PENIS!*
*i could dive a volvo through your vulva*		  
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the lightning scares me!   
09:30pm 20/05/2004
 
mood: afraid
yesterday i went to kristis house for a lil cause i really had to talk to her about some stuff.

KRISTI I LUV U!!!!

she helped me sort out an issue and really made me realize about some stuff. i dont no what i would do without her!

today i got my haircut and new highlights and my eyebrows waxed. i love my hair! hehe

i got home and nan and maura were here. i was so excited that they came for frankys graduation! it was good to see them again.....

then we went out to eat at pilot petes. we got a table right by the window. it started to rain really hard and the lightning lit up the sky. my mom and i were looking outside when a lightning bolt came down and hit this electrical tower place and we saw these huge flames come up. and then thye went down. and then every few minutes even seconds more flames would come up. my mommy called the fire department and what we saw were 2 firetrucks. there may have been more. all i no is that it scared me terribly. what if there were people there? i love storms but this one tonite scared the begeezes outta me!


how does it feel that u lost me and sed that no one could ever trust me? ((when people say that they can tell me anything and they no that i wont say anything)) how does it feel being lonely cause ur bestfriend...your other half cant even look at u? how does it feel looking at all the goodtimes in pictures? how does it feel that u have to pass my house all time? how does it feel when u find out that ur friends lied to u....((now u no how i feel))....just tell me....HOW DOES IT FEEL?		  
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guess where i am....come on just guess   
12:25pm 19/05/2004
 
mood: sick
SKOOL! if u got it right CONGRATS...if not u suck hehe jk! yup yup so im really bored today in skool.

T.O.M. is here once again! he can just suck my balls((as laura mue would say lol))

yesterday i had this breakthrough. it was wierd. i just stopped what i was doing and was like WOW...i no what to do. it was kinda cool actually i got excited. now i no what to say and stuff and im not afraid to do it anymore. YAY YAY!!

so yes now i am bored as hell and i have nothing to do like always and i feel sick. really sick! i havent felt like this in awhile with T.O.M. in all. so this just sux!

i gotta say that i hate that a group has shifted cause we had so much fun yah no. its just that EVERYONE talks about EVERYONE behind EVERYONES back. and i no that i have been talked about whether or not its good or bad but i mean come on guys. and im taking to EVERYONE here. even if i am friends with u this needs to get out. u guys had this coming cause theres always something about someone that must be talked about! and for writing this im gonna be talked about but i dont care! i dont wanna get in fights here but for right now im staying away from it all. im still gonna talk to u guys but im also gonna stay away like during the weekends! i dont want anymore drama! its finally gonna be completely over for me soon and thats how i want it. i ttyl about this whole thing. if u want me to say it to ur face i will. just ask me and i will. until then later		  
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12:29pm 18/05/2004
 
mood: amused
wow havent written in here in a very long time but hey ive got better stuff to do. this weekend was so boring cause i was home working in the yard and in my bathroom cause were redoing it just like everything else in my house!! my fam's coming over on thursday and me excited.

people came up to me today telling me all this stuff. it was crazy. i missed a lot this weekend i guess.

jenny drove me to school today and i get to drive home hehe.

OMG i heard that kristi got hit by a car by some1's bf. how rude lol. im kinda wondering what she sed to him after it happened...."ohh good job sweety" ????

hmmm so yah i guess i have made up my mind on stuff!! and ill ttyl about all that and u no who u are!!		  
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hehe   
06:16pm 06/05/2004
 
mood: crazy
(+) i got to see HIM alot today YAY!!! like he was everywhere lol
(+) have no homework)
(-) tonites is FRIENDS lat episode ever!!!!! :(
(+) jennys driving me to skool tomorrow
(+) im doing my room some more tonite and its almos done!!!
(-) a little confused about a certain someone!!

WOW....alot more + than - id have to say.

kristi and sam are in SPRINGFIELD right now and i miss them but theyll be back soon

STEVIE....i love u gurl....we always have the best convos in lunch hmmm yes yes we do lol. todays especially was great but yesterdays..."THE SEX TALK" was even greater lol.

i.heart.you.		  
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i cant breathe   
07:23pm 05/05/2004
 
mood: drained
today was really good in skool. literally everything was fun.

i get home. it feels wierd. i watched chasing liberty. the movie kinda makes me sad..idk y tho.

I CANT BREATHE!! im like hyperventtilating and jennys seen me before like this. but idk why i am. but i seriously cant breathe. my HEART hurts. my whole body hurts. im getting goosebumps and everything.

what the fucks wrong with me?		  
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totally confused   
04:32pm 04/05/2004
 
mood: confused
JUST TO MAKE THINGS CLEAR....ALL THE STUFF I WROTE IN MY LAST ENTRY HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH MY FRIENDS...IM JUST MAKING A STATEMENT!!!!!!!

jenny drove me to skool.

skool was skool.

im a little consufed on stuff. on whether or not i like this 1 kid. i think im losing friends because of a special someone...GODZILLA...adn i dont like it. my grades are doing pretty good tho ((so thats the positive point)) im trying to figure out if i shud really hook these 2 people up ((idk if their right foreacher tho)) hmmm i think thats it!

jerry drove me home from skool.

now i get to do my homework and paint more of my room!		  
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